I think I've just typed the longest email I'd ever typed in my life. I'd so much to say, my fingers just can't stop typing. It makes me feel so much better. At least I've got everything off my chest.

Sometimes, I can't help but feel all alone.
Your best friends are overseas, you have no one to talk to. You feel like you've got so many friends, but none of whom are willing to listen to you. You feel like you can count on them to support you, to give you advice but when you really talk to them about your problems, they laugh it off to avoid getting into a serious conversation with you. And all you needed was someone to listen to what you've got to say.

Don't you think it's fair to give priority to a particular someone in your life if he/she does the same thing for you? How can you treat someone as insignificant when that particular someone has given you most of the priority in his/her life?

As much as I quarrel with my family, tell myself I hate them sometimes, it's really family members who will stick by you when you're feeling down and love you for who you are. They believe in you, they trust you to do your job well and they'll always respect you no matter what. True that people you love dearly would hurt you the most, but that's just because they mattered.

I can't stop thinking why I'd given so much of my time to someone who don't give a shit about me.